love?

So now I know what it feels like to love someone. And now I also know what it feels like to have your heart ripped out of your chest by that person. It doesn't feel good, and it's not fair, but it's life. I learned my lesson not to give my whole heart to someone over 6 months, and man, I still have more to learn I believe. I can't accept that I have yet more heartbreak to endure before I find that one guy that I can truly fall in love with. I have a long road ahead of me. And along the way I have the friends and family that I love to help me when I need them.

updates I guess...

Seeing as how I haven't posted in a while, I guess I really should update...
Obviously, my birthday was last month. I'm fifteen now and I am so excited. I am so close to achieving freedom! I just know that when I get my real license I won't be around the house much at all. I'm pretty sure that if I'm having a bad day I'll take someones car and just drive....(who knows to where) But, until then, I'm going to live it up to the fullest as a fifteen year old. The day I hit 16 mom is going to be crying all day long. I can feel it in my bones.

As of today, I only have 29 days left of my freshman year at Murphy. As happy as I am that it is almost over...at the same time, I'm sad to see it go. So much has happened in 2008-09, it's almost impossible to grasp it all. Let's see if I can even begin to cover it all.

• I successfully completed both types of Guard, Field season and Winter Guard
• I went through my longest relationship to date, 4 months 3 weeks
• I almost fell in love..(didn't work out the way I planned)
• I just barely made a B in Geometry
• Other than that one, I got all A's
• By the end of this school year I'll have 10 credits
• I believe that I learned my calling in this world, Science.
• My highest grade was an overall 99 in biology.
• I went through more relationships than any one of my friends.
• I found out that it is true what they say about high school, It's the best years of your life, and You learn who your true friends are.

I just can't wait til next year, when my 2 best friends from Phillips (Sam and Genevieve) are at Murphy with me.

On another note, spring break this year was awesome. To most people, my break might have been boring, but I loved it. Pretty much everyday was spent at the mall. However, Sunday was spent with Clint's family for an Easter party sort of thing. His family is so amazing. They all have such great senses of humor. We spent about 4 hours there, and they just flew by. Monday, I went to the mall with my dear friend Jamie, and while we were there, we ran into my friends Alex and Alonzo who were with some of their friends. Now it was a party! Tuesday, I went to the mall with just Alex. We made each other try on random and some ugly clothes. Tons of fun, seeing as how we are easily amused. For some reason I can't remember Wednesday, strange. Friday, I went to the mall once again with my awesome friend, Mimi. All week I have been reading the book, "The Host" by Stephenie Meyer. So far it's really great, but you have to read it slowly to understand everything that is going on. It can get a bit complicated.

One more thing. The week of May 20th or so is now my new goal to get to. During that week pretty much all of my dearest family will be here in Mobile. I am so excited to see my not-so-little nephew and my favorite sister ever!!! I can't wait to see Tracy's new baby along with the other three. I still laugh whenever I think of Tracy singing during guitar hero. I guess that's about all for now. I love you all!

50 things...26-50

The first half actually wasn't that hard...the thing wants to count 1-25 again, and I dont feel like putting up with numbering, so it's just going to be 1-25 again.. :D get over it

1. I can turn my wrists all the way around on a flat surface, it's quite nifty frito
2. I don't really want to drive, but it's a nessecity
3. I hate it when my closet is open right before i go to bed, I swear it's closed, then when I lay down it just opens....
4. Spiders really do suck...I know "without them insects would take over" thanks Mom. But really? Do they have to make their web right over my head and between trees where I walk!?!?
5. Thanksgiving is really my favorite holiday, yay food!
6. Pocahontas is the best Disney movie out there
7. I'm actually very emotional, just not around other people
8. I never really fully trust anyone....except my closest family
9. I am indeed addicted to facebook
10. I can tell the flavor of gum someone is chewing by its smell and sometimes the brand
11. I have been claimed by all my friends as the crazy one and the one who has to be at the party, for it to be a party
12. When I get on the computer, or do homework, I have to have some sort of music or the tv on in the background
13. silence is golden, duct tape is silver.. :D
14. Brandon scares the crap out of me when he is driving!
15. Gardenia is my favorite flower because of the fantasmical smell
16. Ryan is most likely my favorite boy's name
17. Poetry is a great pass time and a big part of me, along with other types of writing
18. I don't really have a clique at school, I hang out with all sorts of people
19. The band room is in fact my favorite room at school
20. I believe that who ever sits there and decides to write those STUPID chain letters should be shot in the head! No clown is going to kill me in my sleep! we don't live in the movie "It"!
21. Red and purple are the two best colors in the crayon box
22. I don't get why there are like 6 different shades of blue in the 96 crayon box...and some of them look the same!
23. I love the fact that Macaroni Grill lets you draw on the table! How cool is that!!!!!!
24. As soon as someone I love turns to walk away I miss them at that very second
25. I think that it is the boy's duty to give his girl his favorite jacket or shirt

50 random things...1-25

Well, after much procrastination, I have decided to finally start my 50 random things blog...I believe that this is going to be more difficult than it looks. I decided not to read Beth's before I did mine since I knew I would steal something. :) here goes...

1. I wish my eyes were blue
2. I am very indecisive
3. I really despise the color pink
4. I will listen the any kind of music, even rap
5. I don't think I ever stop eating
6. My favorite food is cheese
7. I can tell the difference between cheeses
8. Chocolate doesn't really help me w/ the whole PMS thing
9. HOT baths are a favorite pass time
10. I prefer reeses cups over reeses pieces
11. At one time I wanted to go Goth
12. My prefered style is that much like Avril Lavigne, punk
13. Hot Topic is my favorite store
14. Hollister is my second favorite
15. As much as I wish, I have never really fallen for anyone
16. I kick butt at the Guitar Hero drums
17. 3 days grace is probably my favorite band
18. Avril Lavigne is my favorite singer
19. As much as people may say it, I don't think I sing that well
20. I really hope to have a set of twins
21. My favorite girl's name is actually off a cartoon, its Aelita(eye-lee-tuh)
22. Fall is deffinately without a doubt my favorite seaon
23. I really want to take the train up to West Virginia for Spring Break!!!!
24. Winter Guard is driving me insane!!!!!!
25. Texting is a part of my every day life, no stopping it...

In My Dreams...

I was looking up cars on google today and I found my new dream car! It's a Lexus Convertible! I realize that I would never get it, but I can dream, right? Here is an image!

Semester, holidays, and more...

Well, first semester is finally over! Good-bye geometry!!! YAY!!! I can't wait for nest semester, I have all easy classes. The only really tough class I'll have is English, which really isn't that bad. I have Biology, BTE, Engilsh, then Band. If you want to know I'm pretty certain I passes all my 1st semester classes.(even band teehee :P)

Winter guard season has officially started! This weekend was staging weekend. Friday through Sunday all day we blocked our drill for the show, which is only about 3 and a half minutes. Let's see, Friday was class time to 5, dinner, then 6-10; Saturday was 9-6; and Sunday was 1-7. It took all....about 21 hours to block our show with minimum choreography!!! I am in so much pain, and have so many bruises, it' not even remotley funny. It hurts to even walk! I really need to soak in a HOT bath tomorrow!

Now that the harsh and cruel weekend is over, my Chistmas break has finally begun! Woop woop! I'm sadened by the fact that Beth can't come down, but I'm sure we will see her soon enough. We still have other family coming from different places at different times, which is so very exciting! I haven't actually made a Christmas list yet. It seems this year that I don't really want a lot of things like I used to. I guess it's all part of growing up.

One more thing, since I haven't written in a while I guess I'll tell that me and Chris broke up. If you haven't heard it from someone yet, you can hear it now. Even though this happened about 3 weeks ago. It's perfectly fine though, it wasn't all that bad. I currently have another boyfriend named Madison, and I get a lot of grief from my friends because he has a girls name, but I don't care. :) I'll keep you updated on him as much as possible! I'll write again soo, I hope, see some of you soon! Bye!

Some Updates

I haven't posted for some time. There hasn't been much going on, but I guess I can fill in a few things.

School is going great. I've been really bust trying to figure out whats going on in math. The past day I borrowed this great book called Twilight. It's the first in an enitre saga. It was THE GREATEST book I have ever read. I can't wait to get rhe second one. This book is 498 pages and it took me 1 day and 17hours to read! I couldn't put it down! It was amazing. I actually stayed up til 2:45 this morning reading. I highly recomend it to anyone!!! Even adults! It's great! You just need a sense of imagination and adventure! We have already planned a trip to the movies to see it when it comes out. Nov. 21.

A few days from now will be my 3 month anniversary. That will be the longest ever. Hehe. I know it's not that big. But it is for me.

Big news for all you high school football fans out there. The Panthers are 6-0 right now! We are having a great season so far! The halftime shows are going well also. We just finished the last 64 counts of workt his Tuesday! I was hecktic!!! I so tired!!!! That's pretty much it for now. I'll write again soon, hopefully. Maybe something exciting will happen!